I accomplished a big thing today. I went to a movie alone! Going out alone (unless it’s shopping) is something I rarely do. I have a weird fear of being alone, and a friend of mine challenged me to go out and see a movie by myself. I actually have had meals by myself, partly due to a difficult housing situation my freshman year in college. I really figured out how to eat alone, even if I felt slightly uncomfortable doing it. So, I’m not a Rachel Greene from Friends.
I watched No Strings Attached, which was a cute romantic comedy with Natalie Portman and Ashton Kutcher. I was too chicken to see Black Swan, so this is how I’m showing her support. And also, I knew that I would enjoy myself at a romantic comedy, instead of my first choice, Blue Valentine. I didn’t want to leave the movie theater crying my eyes out on the way home like I did when I went to see Milk with a close acquaintance. Plus I wanted to have a positive experience. I was happy I went, and proud of myself that I went alone.
Maybe it’s not a big deal for you. But today, for me, it is.